Fear food: ground beef

Scary because it’s all marbled n stuff…whatever though, letting go feels better. #imnocoward

Shanks Rowe Farms for the good sourced, hormone-free 🐄

I made dis…

Literally: beef, olive oil, shallots, taco sauce 

I added stuff: avo, konjac noodles, portobello, salad.



Sunday Rest Day

I’m quoting myself:

Listen to the whispers or you’ll be forced to abide by the screams.

On my wall

Post it lists of challenges for myself. 

I haven’t taken a rest day in way too long, and decided I’m taking Sundays off as I used to do. It was a non-negotiable.

Posting here for accountability. Will probs go to yoga still. 


Letting Go

Usually, I don’t do this shit: ingredients really are “non-food” items…

“Crab” salad: you know that “flavoured pollock” 💩

So much poop in here, solittlecare

But you know what? #yolo and #lettinggo feels better.

Everything in moderation, even moderation is good. If this is my “treat”, then so be it. I really do enjoy this salad, and I really don’t have very much at all bc my body doesn’t like too much (probs knows it has yick stuff in der).

I like a little bit, life’s spicy when you follow your intuition.


Morning Journalling

Awareness note:

Because I need more reassurance that lowering my cortisol is vital ATM…

Why minimize stress? My body is in fight or flight mode- literally surviving and just trying to get my nutrients- it’s like “screw gut comfort”- all that isn’t the priority bc priority ATM is energy- the higher functions won’t even work. Hunger is skewed bc of hormone and high endorphin and emotions all whack. Must minimize stress so I can calmly eat, calm my gut-be in a state where my body has enough energy to create a peaceful digestion. Then I can explore my mental capacity and life purpose capacity and all life (refer to picture). Now priority is de-stress: lower cortisol.

Butternut Lentils

Mum made this months ago, I was too uncomfy eating it then so I froze it (habit of mine…youshouldseemyfreezer…).

It’s whatever now, and a great, grounding and wholesome lunch bc #teamperiod #Melstruation #HypothalamicAmeNOrrhea #sweetpotbaeto 

Butternut lentil stew with dem Konjac noodle things

Man, fuck Anorexia 


Sesame Cabbage Slaw

Azn style slaw’s are a real nice pairing of flavours:

Sesame Cabbage Slaw:


1 small head of purple cabbage (quarter it, core it, thinly slice quarters)
1/4 red onion (better if you have green onions)
1 carrot, unpeeled and shredded
2 TBSP sesame seeds


juice of 1/2 lemon
1 TBSP fish sauce
1 TBSP soy sauce
1 TBSP each sesame oil and peanut oil
1 TSP rice vinegar
slab of wasabi, to taste, and black pepper
1 tsp grated ginger (tip: freeze ginger root, grate it frozen)

Mix all things.

Small Huge Wins

May not look like much, but this is Kohlrabi in sesame oil and maldonseasaltflakes (bc imstillachef)

I’m pissing on my own rules of no food btwn lunch and dinner, because #iwantmyperiodback. This little shift, esp adding oil, means a lot.

This combo was inspired by some radish-sesame-sea salt flake recipe. It was a real nice pairing 👌🏻

🍷here’s to the future baby of MEL (and all the other forms of healing n stuff like living life freely n helping my others and having my own retreat centre n winning races n tings).