Serve Yourself

I saw a human pyramid once. It was very unnecessary.

Mitch Hedberg

 

Most software today is very much like an Egyptian pyramid with millions of bricks piled on top of each other, with no structural integrity, but just done by brute force and thousands of slaves.

Alan Kay

I do many things in my life in a pyramid structure; work, spin workouts, swims sets, runs:

John Salt’s Classic 1:45’s Spin

15            1:30

30            1:15

45            1:00

1:00            45

1:15            30

1:30            15

1:30            15

1:15            30

1:00            45

45            1:00

30            1:15

15            1:30

It’s a build, it’s a hold, it’s a flux, and it’s a structure.  Sometimes the pyramid feels good, I do it twice (sprint, then tempo).  Sometimes I don’t do it at all.  Sometimes I think that a coupla quick 100+ rmp (fast leggies) sprints are good enough for a warm up.

Just because things are simple, or repeated, does not make them less progressive.

In life; this is directly relatable.  I’ve been toying with the idea of consumerism, and feel uneasy with the city living I’m in.  I moved from North Shore Vancouver to the West End, and feel more than ever this desire for disconnection.  In my city life; I see the inflation of food.  Work more in order to pay for better food.

I’ve stepped outside of my bubble to look at the picture I’m painting of my life.  My job is a means to an end; money for rent.  I’m tagging along with the flow, mindlessly.  Hold UP!  Tune in Tokyo, le WHY!?  It’s what is done <– bullshit.  Just as a mindless workout gives me little room for fitness goal reaching, mindless job is the same stagnation of growth.  Am I working to work, or working to grow.  The pyramid here shows that I can feel like I’m building in a job, the format is sound; people do it – climb the corporate ladder to the top.  External recognition can cloud internal voices that plead for a shake up.  Plead for a change, plead for soul food.

But simplicity, and space to let your soul speak (this is an endeavouring entrepreneur speaking and I understand that not all people will be able to connect to this) is needed.  At any given point we can slow down and take a step back to see if the 1:45’s at 120+rpm are serving us.

I overheard a conversation of a coupla yoga instructors who were relaying a story of a friend who is on a journey to Nepal to teach yoga, with free room an board.  They joked that this is pretty much what they’re doing here in Vancouver; working, to pay for rent and food, give or take the odd ski trip.

Interesting.  Who’s path is more appealing; working in Vancouver teaching yoga at a prime studio, or in an unpaid job in a lesser off country, with fewer luxuries, and no rent or buying food.

So I chewed on this.

If we go back to basics, mnmlsm; we work less, (maybe, maybe not – Tim Ferriss 4-hour Workweek concept) and make less money, and spend more time doing things we have let society construct for us as necessities.

  • plant a garden for food
  • live in boonies, pay less tax
  • organic food waterfalls into less health care costs by virtue of better health
  • less stress (chosen, albeit)

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I think the possibilities for reaping rewards from minimalism, subtracting, unplugging, are endless.  Now I know that we can justify just about anything that our powerful minds come to believe, but I believe this.

This theory resonates with me, and I realize that it might not resonate with others.  I’m not keen on new technologies, new automated things, faster, better, efficient.  None of this equates to effectiveness, and slowing down is the life for me.  I don’t want to cut out space (time) for faster cooking.  I want to spent time making my meals with the main ingredient of love, it tastes better.

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Work less, consume less, and channel your energy to tuning into your self.  Give yourself space to grow.  That’s why were here.  To take up space, experience, nourish our souls.

The pyramid shows the unnecessary crap that can be filled in the base to grow a structure taller.  We choose what the filler is.  Is it more work?  Or is it more space?  What will be more stable?  Screw that, stability is comfort; routine is bland.  Sometimes a shaky base paves way for a new pyramid, or a new structure that is better suited for us.

Take a step back and remember that we are never at any effect of anything.  We always choose what we want.  There are influences, but we choose to let them sway our thoughts, our choices, and our actions.  Being mindful, inquiring internally if something is serving us is a way to be present to seek out soul’s path.

I can set out with an intent to work hard in a pyramid-formatted run, but am I working to work, or working to genuinely nourish my love for sport and respect the athlete self that I am.

The elaborate building, the esoteric and obtuse concepts of different workouts, different ways to live, different jobs; they all boil down to simplicity.

I can write a complicated workout, because Triathlon.com makes it seem like the athlete will improve if a specific workout is completed.  I can change my running gait, because it is more “efficient”.  But in the end, I think the improvements seen are a factor of what we choose to believe.  I write a workout, and feel that it is a “good one” (those who train with me know what this means – puke pace, anyone?).  But I’ve already set out to define it a certain way.  I can read that supportive running shoes will reduce impact and injuries.  All the fluff, all the information.

I choose to believe that anything inauthentic to our beings is energy-sucking.  I am drained when I fight my beliefs.  In seeking external confirmation, affirmation, preachings, we silence our inner voice, we belittle it.  Listen to that voice.

By tuning in, I’m learning that my body wants me to succeed in anything that my soul deeply, deeply wishes.  My genuine pleasure, deepest desires they will come forth if I allow them to, and with patience, space, and acceptance, I will be led into the direction that I am meant to, that I choose to.  Easily.

In workouts, I do have things written on a page, or a mental guideline.  The pyramid builds, and I start out on the journey, inversely or not.  But nothing is finite.  We can always go back to our own voice and listen to it.

I don’t want to make the mistake of seeping energy from my being, simply because I want to fill the pyramid with fluff.  I tune in, look in.  Gaining knowledge and ideas from external sources is a beautiful thing in our society with ample accessibility to information resources, but contemplate their authenticity in your being.  Does it resonate with you?  Inquire deeply if it does.  Don’t form a pyramid simply because you want to form it, if it is draining you.  Don’t lose yourself in the norm, because it is what everyone else is doing.  Respect yourself.  And my god, if you start climbing, and the view makes you fly, the feeling enflames your soul, then soar baby.

Take a few steps here to tune in:

Exercise to Evaluate if your life is working for you:

 

  1. Sit in a quiet place where you feel comfortable. 
  2. Bring into focus your energy management; where you give room for your energy.  Rank the top 3. 
  3. Take each of the three top energy demands in your life, and sit with each one in your mind for at least 2 minutes eachAsk yourself how each one makes you feel as you focus on it.  Inquire your being as to how you hold your muscles, your belly, your shoulders, your posture, your hands, your restful state.  Are you fidgeting? Or at peace?
  4. Write down three words that you can settle upon for each of the three energy fields. 
  5. Now objectively look to see if they serve you. 
  6. Next step: finding what serves you, if these do not. 

It’s never too late to start.  A great way to find what we need is to eliminate what we don’t.

The conventional river flows fiercely, and swimming upstream is hard, but damn Salmon are a tasty fish, especially when cooked with love.

And everything will be alright forever and forever and forever.

Wherever you go, you take yourself with you.

What a concept.

The subjectivity of interpretation can be a wisely administered tool.  As always, interpreted appraisal of something can be positive, negative, or opportunist.  I think there’s merit in looking at a situation objectively, and choosing to ingest it with interest in making it in the most useful and beneficial way that you possibly can.

An optimist looks at a glass half full.

A pessimist, half empty.

The opportunist drinks it.

Be the opportunist.

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I moved to Vancouver upon graduating university with intent to grow.  Grow I have.  In mind, through means of body, and connectivity with the world and others.

I see things differently because I choose to.

I’m realizing my own power.

Moving away from home, I realized that I can no longer put blame on my stagnation in journey to full happiness on others; my parents and circumstances.  This move was my dream.  I’ve come to a huge realization that I have all the resources internally to be whatever the fuck I want to be.  Self soothe.  Respond according to my authenticity.  Choose my path.  I am.

Whatever it is I want, I can manifest.  I can attract.  Abundance is cultivated through the soul’s desire.  We harness our lives; nourish our nests, manifest our awareness to be what best serves us.  Or we don’t.  I think all our choices will lead us to where we want to go if we believe that they will.

No. This is a complete sentence.  I smile when I need a hug, it brings me to self soothe.  I am becoming more mindful in my life, tuning in.  I live in the present moment, and remind myself of this by accepting encounters as inquisitions in my body.  I went to a yoga class, and the instructor was describing a term used by fellow yogi who said each pose in the series, he treats as a movement inquisition.  How does the pose serve you.  I realize that I am not at an effect of external influences, but I am the effect.  How do things serve in my body, mind.  I choose.  I’m receptive to my own vibes, my energy, my power and cultivation of pleasure, character building, strength and growth.

I’m the catalyst to my own happiness.

Be authentic to your chosen path.

I’m open, growing, and everything will be alright, forever and forever and forever.

The Fishing is Best Where the Fewest go

Named must your fear be before banish it you can.

The what.

What are you doing? What are you going to do? What have you done? What do you want to do?

Confusing, overwhelming, unmotivating when stuck in the “I DON’T KNOW LEAVE ME ALONE” hands thrown up in the air, frustration-heavy, aggravated FEELING.

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 Teetering on the edge of wanting to start my own entrepreneurship, low on funds, passion filled and unconventional, I feel immobilized.  I’m inbetween finding what I want to do with my life.  The cursed what.  

I’ve met a few wonderful people here, and had passed along to me a book from the lovely and kind hearted giver, Alison Setton.  I’m reading Tim Ferriss’s “The 4-Hour Workweek”, and feeling supported with the motivation and encouragement from other unmoulded individuals.

A special point that is turning my tum, heart and head is the notion that the 9-5 work environment is the easy way out for those who suppress their dreams and endeavors, settling with the idea that they simply are unrealistic.  Tim states that it’s easy to stop a ball before it’s rolling, but momentum encourages an unfaltering path.

“It’s lonely at the top. Ninety-nine percent of people in the world are convinced they are incapable of achieving great things, so they aim for the mediocre.  The level of competition is thus fiercest for realistic goals, paradoxically making them the most time and energy consuming. It is easier to raise $1,000,000 than it is $100,000.  The fishing is best where the fewest go.” – Tim Ferriss, The 4-Hour Workweek

I know that in the world of making myself, I’m relishing in a standstill, and therefore am trying to keep busy.  Busy is lazy.  I’m taking the easy route and being “efficient” but not “effective”.  I am good at whatever I choose to dedicate my time and energy to, but without clear set goals of my end result, I am not effectively moving towards self-actualization and definitely not living authentically.

Two important points:

  1. Doing something unimportant well does not make it important.
  2. Requiring a lot of time does not make a task important.

These are two huge faults and bindings’ of the 9-5 epidemic.  If you are allotted a certain amount of time to do a task, you will mould your schedule and pace to match that.  Often times, the amount of work done in 8 hours can easily be re-formatted to complete in one.  Mnmlsm is so important, cut out the unnecessary and aim for only the minimal effective dose.

I am falling into the blinded pattern of distraction from my goals because they are not defined.  I am writing this now to define them.

Short term (6 months):

I’ve identified a group of people to which I want to direct my efforts and that is the corporate 9-5’ers.  Stricken by stress, I’m sick of seeing my parents and those who I interact with fitting this category with furrowed brows and endless unexplainable ailments stemming from stress.  Stress is self-inflicted.  Obligation is a shitty word.  No one HAS to do anything in his or her lives.  The only thing certain to us is death.  Choose your words wisely and understand that very few things in life have the power to have a significant effect on our lives.  Your work life is still your life.  Remove work from that sentence and create beauty everywhere.  External environments do not bring happiness, but internal peace does.

I am:

Creating an enterprise where me and my employees who will include yoga instructors, Kinesiologists, triathletes, mindfulness advocates, comedians, art therapy individuals, movement specialists and RMT’s to come into the corporate setting, remove employees for an allotted amount of time (ideally into nature, get outta that concrete jungle!) and have a session of movement, motivation, mindfulness, and holistic health instruction.  I want to focus on points that will be transferrable back to the workplace, tools that can be used on a daily basis to live a better life.

Long Term:

Incorporate travel to this equation, overseas, camping, getting back to basics, gardening, minimalism.

I want to get certified as a yoga instructor in India, life coach, neuromuscular mobility specialist, ayurvedic specialist, and meditation mentor.  I want to learn more about the Finnish education system, and about Icelandic culture.

I want an office.  Somewhere in the Scandinavian region of Europe.  I want to spread the wellness epidemic.  I want people to have more fun, understand the power of the made up mind, and relentlessly accept self-love and positive energy so the whole world can glow.

The How:

I’m working with a company called Yoga Rush in promoting corporate yoga and Joga (a sport-specific style of yoga) to professional sports teams.  I am passionate about the cause; it is very much in line with my values.  This is important; other jobs I’ve held are not inline with my Ikigai, and I feel like I’m traveling in a direction now towards my goal.

My next steps are to continue speaking out, taking up space, showing the world that this is needed, showing how constantly relaxed shoulders are an attainable set point.  I’m smiling through it because although it is the process and not the result, it is still my life, and I’ll not wait till the end for happiness.  I’m excited.

Here we go.  Join me?